Thoughts...

Hello everyone, its been awhile since we have or rather I have posted anything, and I realized that I get a bit bummed when I go to other blogs and find nothing new realized I should just post something!
So right now I am at home, getting ready to prepare for the first meeting for a women's bible study that I co-lead with a good friend. I am really excited about this as all of the women in the group are all good friends, and this time we have 9 women, compared to 4 last session. I know this will be a very fruitful time. We are reading Henri Nouwen's "The Return of the Prodigal Son" and so far I am realizing how we each carry qualities of the three; and although I often see myself as the older son relating to the "good kid", which is actually not a great thing-the older son was a son that did the right thing by duty but didn't truly see his fathers heart (if he had he would have rejoiced with him), I am actually often the prodigal in the rebellious sense, looking for things other than God himself that will satisfy my heart-that plays out in many ways each day, maybe its r trying to find my identity in some sort of career, or searching for validation from others-all those things are just idols in the way of the Lord. I am also learning and how the Lord longs for us to be both the returned prodigal, desperate for the true love of the Father and the Father alone, humbled before him, and the Father, a comfort to others (as a Christian the Lord says, his spirit is in us and with his spirit we can be an extension of God's heart here on earth)...hmmm...so that is that.

An another note I have been and am very prayerful about my photography career, currently I am working on two photo documentary projects which are exciting but until these take off and get turned into books etc.. I would love to get paid for my photography work-I would love your prayers on this one. Right now I have my resume out at two of the most influential human rights organizations-hopefully they will have a position for me-if not I trust that God is leading me in some direction-the hard thing is that often I only see the first few inches in front of me and am desperately wanting to see the next turn. But I know God better than that he desires for us to hold unto him and follow his lead, and in that position we are protected and secure and in the humble position we often see only the Father, which is his desire, but boy is that hard. I often want to see more. So pray for confidence in this time of waiting.

Here is one of my documentary photographs that I love-its a group of neighborhood kids on the basketball courts, where many kids spend all their time during warm months.