Baby A.....
Sweet Baby Boy!! You are going to make your appearance any moment now! We don't know when and are very excited...sometimes nervous...but always full of joy and anticipation. At times my heart skips a beat, like when falling in love...other times my heart beats fast and I feel a little overwhelmed and unprepared! But I think that is the beauty of motherhood..how God designed it. That ultimately we are not the ones in control He is! We are given the great responsibility to nurture you but ultimately our great God is our guide and voice of wisdom...everything good is from him. And from the start we have to completely depend on him, trust that God loves you more than I and that he will guide your daddy and I to take perfect care of you. It is God who has graciously entrusted you to us-our grace gift! He knows we can do it, from our first touch to dressing you for this cold weather, to nursing to raising you to be a young boy of integrity and a man of conviction and passion. God is here with us!
I can't believe this precious journey of us being so close-you in my body, my womb-is coming to an end. I am sure I will miss this special time we have shared, feeling your little kicks and twirls and little legs and feet...I am sure I will miss knowing you are so close and secure and comfy. And the tender moments me and your daddy share talking with you and waiting for you to react! :) But we must together make these first steps toward independence! :) Funny while you will be totally dependent on me in many many ways- I am excited to see the beauty in God's design-you will be a bit more independent than you were in the womb. And every day our job is to give you the love, nurturing, tools, encouragement, support and respect... that you need to grow into you-you a part of us but your own person! As dad says when I poke you in the womb, "Let him be he is his own person."
So sweet boy, we have prayed, prepared, and waited for this day-whenever you want we are ready for you, to hold you in our arms and hear your little breathes, to kiss your lips and caress your little rolls, (which I am sure you have) to look into your eyes. To be the first to expose you to all your senses! I pray the first sounds you hear are words of LOVE, the first things you smell are the comforting scents of your mama and papa, the first things you feel are the strong arms of your daddy as he passes you to me-then next the warmth of my chest, the first thing you taste-if you are a little licker-the salt of my skin! :) The first thing you see are the loving faces of your father and mother.
I am so full of joy that we are given this great gift to expose you to all the beauty of this Earth...I can't wait for you to see your little view kiddo!!!! World Class...you are our New York baby and who knows how long we will be here, but I pray that this city will always hold a special place in your heart-the city you were created in and born in...a city that is full of people who are praying for you and already love you...a city full of need, a city full of adventure and creativity, full of people and diversity...Son this is your city! Can't wait to welcome you into this place!
Also I can't wait for you to meet your grandparents and aunts and uncles...to share the joy of you with them...they are anxiously awaiting your arrival...Our lives will never be the same! Truly!
Our first born.
We love you son.
And I know we can do this, me ,you and your daddy-you will come out smooth and with ease! Its our labor and we can do it!
"From the Lips of Children and Infants He has ordained Praise!" Psalm 10
Love you to infinity,
Mama
